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Posted Tuesday, November 2, 2010 //
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 It's like all of the bad stuff that you went through, that you hated along the way; the people who disappoint you, the people who say one thing but ended up doing different thing.. the people u care about whole heartedly but to them ur just their last resort. please dont take me for granted. one day, i will really drift apart and by then u will realised how late you were in realising all this.I just want someone to hear what I have to say. And maybe if I talk long enough, everything will make sense again... The last time i ever talk so long and comfortably was the last day of last year. Seeing our reflections upfront as countless of trains passing by every minute every then, i remenisced back to the past. Ain was saying how i've changed and i swear i kinda freaked out for while. When someone said that, it can either be good change or bad change. "Im turning bad isit?" Kept asking her that. Only the last few hours before 2011,truth sinks in. An sms from her which summarise eveything. " You're different now. different good i think. " Thank you for i was so afraid of changing .we've grown. physically maybe.. emotionally maybe too.. This post is so messy and twisted like my head now.. so messy i feel like arghhhhhhh i'm not satisfied with where i'm at in life..with all i ever wanted, it comes with a price. Current Mood:  busy◀ RECENT ENTRIES | HOME | OLDER ENTRIES ▶ |
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 I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.
Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; 
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