Its been 2 years.I make a mistake of letting my hair grow and grow and now its too long. I could have cut it myself and it could be a complete success or maybe it might turned out disaster and i will cry.. Yesterday was a very sweet night long.Make lilah learnt how to do the braid from fatin so she can do it to my hair and she pulled and pulled and i shouted cos its so damn painful, i scolded her and almost told her to gave up. But then looking at how determined she was, i let her play along.

Talking bout this hair thingy.. it reminds me of the past. Okie so this is gonna be a bit weird..
and i never done this before but here we go.. my hijab story.

You know hair is a gal's bestfriend right? Back then , i used to love my hair so much and i would like play with it, cut bangs, do a side fringe and so on.. I love to play my sibling's hair too.. disastrous but awaes turns out perfect.. haah. I don't know, it makes me feel happy. i like looking pretty, who doesnt? After secondary school, i went to polytechnic and i was a full-time hijabi. I didnt feel awkward or what. But i have to admit, u can never run away from temptation and bad influence.some people did ask me to take it out but i keep praying i wont turned out like that. I m glad though i have poly friends who accepted me as i am and dont judge me by what i was wearing.

I took a long time to get used to wearing hijab. Its not like a one day thing where u can wear it today and then happily took it out the next day. I understand that feeling.. and i know the first few time, its gonna be hard and people gonna say and all that stuff but insyaAllah, when its time, its time. You don't have to force yourself cos this thing takes time. Been there,done that. Have faith in yourself and slowly you might be comfortable in it. Wearing a hijab also means i have to take care of my behaviour when im out in the public. It really hurts me when i saw things i dont like especially when it comes to gals with hijab. They curse, they smoke, they did ugly things with their boyfriends or guyfriends and i feel ashamed and i donno what makes them do it.

So u see,morale of the story here.. don't judge a book by its cover. Doesnt mean that gal doesnt wear a hijab, she's not modest enough or she's not good enough. You never know right if she prays at home or if she reads the Quran daily. The same goes to the gal who wear a hijab but then turns out.. doing*ugly things*. The good can become bad and the bad can become good. Who are you to judge them? This hijab matter is a sensitive issue and i will not go further. Keep praying.Hopefully, the bad will change. And the next time u're about to have bad thoughts bout these gals, stop. Let Allah judge them not you.