U know,I so much wanted to go forward and hugged her and tell her that everything's alright, that you gonna be alright but all that i could afford to do was stood there and watched them attend to her. i dont even know her that well but seeing things like this its just.. all i know is that she's my mum's friend. The same exact age as my mum. she's got herself into a very bad accident.she's the pillion rider. i just.. i dunno.. i think i got myself into a shock or something..i lost my words and after what seem like eternity i finally braved myself, found my voice and i whispered. She was so fragile, all i could manage was some words i repeated over and over again to her ear.. can she hear me? i dunno. i know Allah does.

I didnt fret having to spend my friday visiting two hospitals knowing even further that one is located on the east and the other at west. I just follow.. that's what im to do. so i did. and i left the hospital with a heavy heart and the hope that one day, things will be alright for her family.


“Ya Al-Ghaffar, please forgive me for the sins I have done every single day, intentionally or not.
Verily, You are The Forgiver. Take my life away only in the best state of iman.”

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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