This game of tug-of war has just begun and its making me feel so vulnerable than ever and i should know better than getting myself feeling like this. But who would have known? Dont start wishing, dont start hoping. Dont. just dont idah. just dont..because you know better than this. you know. and you know how it will all begins and how it will all end. you know it yourself.

The greatest story ever told.

We learned since young that most great love stories happens only in fairytale. Since then, i've been hoping my fairytale begins but like a momentary happiness, i know i dont have much hope. Magical thoughts starts to appear before your eyes and you find yourself in this masquerade, with so many other beautiful souls and u just keep on searching.You just get lost and mesmerized at the same time. Too unsure of how you get there. Too unsure of how all of this begins. Masquerade everywhere, such beauty. But really, you can only see their eyes, not much else. But if they don't look back, they can't love you…

i wasnt really searching. I was just wandering around. wandering around aimlessly.
and then this pair of eyes met mine. But im not sure, im not sure if he will look back.

It stuck me there and then, time is fleeting. Dizziness and sadness mixed to one and i ran away because i have no choice. I fall right when the clock strikes 12 and it hurts. it hurts because all i could think of after that was that pair of eyes..

this is insane. sigh.
:(

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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