When you are away from your loved ones by a month margin yet it feels like forever to have them back by your side.. When you kept yourself entirely busy trying not to think, not to let even a minute pass by, ur mind wandered off worrying and missing and all that stuffs all at the same time. When the first week is so terrible and it hurts so bad. I cant escape feeling like this.

but i forgot. I forgot that in the absence of my parents, i still have those beautiful souls by my side. My relatives from both sides and my friends. They are the ones who have been helping me to get by this stormy rainy days. They are the one who has been carving smiles on my face every now and then. I get excited just by this mere 3 words question : How r u?

I learnt a lot. And i began to open my eyes to a lot of things that's been happenning lately. Lessons that i guess i will never ever get to experience if they didnt get away from us for a while. And all this beautifully plan has been decided by Allah. He's teaching me a lesson here, Alhamdulilah for all the good and the bad things.

And for these people in my life;
They are every bit beautiful on the inside as they are on the outside..

Till then;

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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