10 more minutes before 9pm, an sms from an unknown number popped in. And then i teared because of the overwhelming happiness and sadness when i realised its mama and ayah. i really miss them a lot..a lot. Only Allah knows how hard this is for us. i wish at that moment i can hear their voice. i felt sick cos im not too sure if they will get back my return sms. Few minutes later, my doa dimakbulkan. i got another surprise. A call. From them, my parents!! And then i thought, okie cool down.. jangan nangis.. jangan nangis.. I managed for a while and then when it comes to my adik turns, both of them cried their hearts out. like alahai..sedihnyer macam nak peluk satu2, taknak lepas. Seeing those priceless tears makes me break down too.. :'(

true enough, i took the longest time to become 'normal' again. heeh
Things will be alright. InsyaAllah.

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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