Try watching a baby photo without smiling.. U cant right? simply cause u cant resist the feeling of happiness..Im browsing through my aunt's photos now and ya ampun, like so cute like that her daughter.. seriously, i cant stop smiling

so just now while on the way back home inside the mrt, there's this cute chubbychubby baby boy(*TAKLEH RESIST THE CUTENESS*) with his mum and grandma, they were sittin at the priority seat and i was standing right in front of them. The baby was staring at me so i smiled back.I keep doing that. After a while i get tired,i look away.. This has been goin on for the past 20 mins, and again the cycle continues. And then i cant remember how or what.The grandma caught me doing that smiling-staring actions so she grabbed the lil boy hand to make some waving actions back at me. I swear i was so happy to see that. The next thing happen was really unpredictable of me. Was really i dunno.. i dunno why i did that..U see, i go pinch his cheeks..ohmyy of all things, wth idah. tak kenal tak apa.. and tak cukup tu, i go touch his lil feet. boohoohoo..So embarassing. i wish the next stop was my station.Lucky me, both the mum and grandma was the friendly kind. phew. And when i finally arrived at my destination, the baby is soundly asleep. Dissapointed much cause i know i may never get to see him again. :( oh well, just need to keep reminding myself never to do that ever again.

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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