Because i cant have everything that i want.. How do i end up happy?
Because most of the time people just look at me on the surface and look at me without understanding.
Because for once,i wanted to shout at them and ask them to turn back..
and look at me differently.. and show them that im that girl.. that girl who really have messed things up and that everything is not perfect for me.

this is not easy.making this choices.. this is really not easy..
I do want to stay contented.. but to be happy is a whole lot different point.

I do have a lot to say.. a lot but its all in the head now and its all jumbled up. What is there left to say now? i know how life can be a mess..i understood that a long time ago.Maybe its you.. maybe its me but we both know this still sucks.

sometimes we need to be miserably down to understand the real meaning of life.
im going to be alright but today,i'm not so sure

Current Mood: thankful

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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