Honestly, i know i cant really cook as delicious as my mum. And when i did, it just following receipe and such. All these while i have always take things for granted with or without realising it and maybe just maybe, with my parents one month absence by our side, im learning a lesson here. Everyday is new. Today is d day of Arafah and i feel wasted because i cant fast. I don't know what comes over me, decided to try out cooking dishes by myself. The two naughty sister helps me too but one is fasting and the other then busily playing with Ayu. My two aunt came over for a while to take something and i had a good time laughing tgt with them when they realised what im trying to do.

After they left, i finally know what i should do and the cooking starts. Its the same feeling as doing lab experiment. ok. wth idah. i think okielah overall, boleh telan. heh heh. Alhamdulilah.

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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