At some point of time, my blog can be filled with so many photos from all kinds of friends and family. So i noticed. Alhamdulilah for all the good and bad stuffs thats been going on.. im still here, surviving these.. with supports and advices and love from all them. Not even a thank you is enough. You know how sometimes, once in awhile, ppl ask how are you? And i had to reply alhamdulilah im fine. But maybe, they passed that thought that muslims replied alhamdulilah even for the bad things that had happened.. Because we muslim no matter what believed that verily with hardships, comes ease.. that bad and good stuff came from Him. That maybe we may not know the reason why now but sooner or later slowly it will be revealed. I tried not to make it sound as cliche as possible but it comes out the same isnt it? haaah

So monday came and i had the shock of my life. R206 was flooded hours ago and i came to the scene a lil too late. I thought okie maybe its not a big deal like how the clean room flooded with water weeks ago. And then the news came to me and its kinda hard to sink in. My samples, my workingplace was ruined.. okie half of my hard earned work vanished into thin air and im already feeling teary but i managed to calm down. That day was Liu Yao last day too. It seems even the ceiling is "crying" for her.

Joey left. Liu Yao left.  It feels different now :(  Soon it will be the rest of these DTs and engineers. I;ve make so many great friends here. Always there cheering me on but life has to move on right?  we will get use to it. Like how the students keep changing after 3 months and how i had to said goodbye to friendship that fast. We will get use to all this. We will.

I tend to think alot, about what should have been said, about what should have been done.Often, you will find me staring into spaces but that's just me. I dont like to show my sadness and i tried not to break down in front of any beings that i know of simply cos i realized, it doesnt get better.When you see those tears in my eyes, that's when you know i really cant keep up with the facade any longer.Im not someone who opens up easily to people but when i do, its because i trust you. I dont know how to be a good friend but i promise i will be there like how a friend should be.

Sometimes, my actions, my sayings, my words, can be really unpredictable but that's when i really really meant what was said. I am surrounded with beautiful souls but at times, i prefer being alone.I am hard to read, like a plain old boring novel with a one word tittle on that front cover. This what makes most people gave up on knowing the real me. Im trying to be a better muslimah insyaAllah yet im still far from behind. This just me; ▶Nur Khalidah Jasmani◀;

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